Hello guys.. I've been happy lately but still I think ang sama ko naman kung mambitin ako di ba?
So ayun, i grew up knowing that I'm different from my friends. Somehow may fear ako, kasi I'm 19 but the longest relationship I had was 6 months at LDR pa un! The truth is I don't know if I'm still a virgin or not. My father tried ata to penetrate me. I remember it very painful. Ewan. I'm not really sure! I was less than 10 years old
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So parang nasa isisp ko agad pag nasa relationship ka, what if hindi na pala ako virgin??
Ang isang painful pa para sakin is not having a father. Meron nga but ibang iba kesa sa mga friends mo. Alam mo un? I am very much close to my best friend's father. Kasi sa kanya ko nakita ung lambingang mag ama na walang malisya. I'm a huggy, kissy person. Malambing ba, pero never ko magawa un sa tatay ko. :(
In all other aspect masasabi kong perfect ang tatay ko. Matalino, good diciplinarian, great provider, has great wisdom, maasikaso, mahaba pasensya, lahat lahat except for that. Kung makikita nyo tatay ko, you will never believe all of what I am saying. Kaya nga ang tanong ko, BAKIT? Minsan nga naiisip ko sana mapagsugal na lang sya, nambabae, etc etc. Pero hindi. One flaw, at un pa. :(
My relationship with my younger brother and mother has been affected because of this. As I grew up, narealize ko ang kasalanan ng Tatay ko, and I wanted revenge. Alam mo un, ung ipaalam mo sa kanya na alam mong may lasalanan sya sayo. Kaya ako spoiled ako sa Tatay ko, all high school life at hangang halfway ng college hatid sundo ako nan sa van namin. And I didn't care even if he waits long. Parang ang bitchy kong anak. Kapag may gusto ako kuha ko un. Sa bahay, hindi ako nauutusan.
Dyan ko ipapasok ang kapatid kong lalaki. Let's name him Miko. Miko is very smart, good looking guy. Valedictorian ng elementary, Honorable mention nung hs and still doing great now taking up Accountancy as a Pre- Law. And still he felt that he wasn't good enough. Bakit? Dahil palagi sya ang nauutusan, napapagalitan and he had to settle for second best dahil ako palagi ang bida. Hindi ko napansin yan, dahil galit din ako sa mundo.
I love my brother soo much. Napakabait na bata. I feel guilty that he also had to suffer because of what happened to me.
I went to a private college, took up Nursing. Never ako nakakuha ng honors both elementary and HS. But I know that I am smart. Among us sibling I got the highest IQ score. I never tried to study hard. Parang gustong gusto kong nakabitin ang pwet ng parents ko. Ung palaging kabado sa resulta ng buhay ko. Again, one of the ways to get my revenge. Still, minsan hindi maiwasang lumabas ang galling ko lol (magyabang naman ako unti?) I’m good at writing and public speaking. (hindi nga lang halata sa blog na to). I won plenty of contests when it comes to that. Still my accomplishments are nothing compared to my siblings. Science contests, English and Math. Name it meron silang award dyan. My little sister recently graduated elementary as a Salutatorian. Oh di ba? Black sheep na black sheep ang dating ko?
Ok, it’s 2am now. I have to sleep. Next time ko ituloy life story ko.
-trouble with my mom
-my chosen course
-fight with my ninang(mahirap iexplain tong part na to. kailangang ikwento ko pa ang relationship namin lol)
-and another grave thing my dad did that I almost decided to kill him
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| This is a pic of a new born of a patient I assisted in giving birth! Cute huh? Just wanted to add random pics I took! :) |
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